I'm just a soul whose intentions are goodOh Lord, please don't let me be misunderstoodWhat happens when you're given something that distracts you from the real world? Not to be confused with something that is necessarily bad; its actually good. Great. Is that a bad thing? its like i asked before: is to much of a good thing a bad thing?
"its like: I breathe him in and he makes me high".
i feel that its hard to switch from shit to strawberries...example: so its no secret, i have had the worse luck when it comes to relationships...cheated on, mislead, even having the man who said he cared about me to go as far as becoming physical with me. and now, i have an incredible man who cares, he's gentle towards my feelings, and is sincere in it all. yet, i find myself drowning in my used to be sorrows and thinking that he may be a set up.
Do i know its unfair to him? yes. Do i know its wrong to assume he's gonna hurt me? yes. Am i foolish? probably, but i can't deny that my mind doesn't wonder and pride steps in to hinder the happiness i want to see, and shows the dark shadows of depression, doubting myself and my worth and i crash.
I am constantly overdosing on the thought of Mr.Impeccable coming in and rescuing me from my hurtful past. Its the only thing that calms my nerves, having my lovedrug in my bloodstream. I want him close, need him the most but @ the same time....losing it the way I do, abusing him this way will kill me if he was to ever leave me.
he's truly priceless and I know this. He is a King worthy of me as his Queen. He makes everything mo' better. i know i'm a handful and sometimes am difficult to deal with but remember this babe:
I can't lie, you never seize to amaze me
at times you talk, and i swear that you're crazy
I learned a long time ago
the pride doesn't help it only hurts
Four months strong and we're looking like a plan
I'm looking like your woman and your looking like my man
and thats all i want baby...forgive me.