sweet lies of sweet love

Sometimes I ponder and think: the decisions I make? am i making the right ones when it pertains to me> to we? its as if I question whether he approves of me? does he agree or disagree?

It racks my brain. does he think about me? does he want to see me? who knows> i don't. I feel like my pretty wings have been taken off. i feel he doesn't even know my name.

i feel like i'm trapped. damned if i do and damned if i don't. its like i wonder if i'm wrong @ times, especially right now. I care for him, i want to be with him but i'm wondering....now that i'm here does he still see me the way he used to? feeling feels strange? can't quite put my finger on it...where has my lover's rock rolled to?

Am I not considerate enough? how come u don't call me, anymore? I feel that I do, and do...is it given back to me? i refuse to be like any other girl. i just can't seem to get it right? maybe i need to pull out of this, but the feelings are there already...OOps. too late. Can i put it on ice? who does that?

Then it comes up, do you think others are in the picture? nah...i don't think so. do u trust him? course i do...r u spoiled? probably. but he's nice; he makes time for everything else...even everybody else? do u feel u get seconds? the short end of the stick? ask me if I care. I made an agreement not to give up...not to throw in the towel...but how can u love in isolation? i'm not trying to play the role of the "broken-hearted girl"

I know some only come in your life for a season, and stay a while giving you a reason
to take the temporary and think that its forever
but he's given me someone that I can believe in, I know there will be times we can't come to an agreement, but i know we'' figure out the ups and downs but this time....? I always wanted a relationship that I could say was good, that was really worth something, that meant something to me. and I knew it would be work but how can u handle business being emotional?

I feel that my feelings are a burden; if they're a burden then I'm a burden. sometimes its like i feel with every sound he makes, my heart breaks. how do i explain? where's the time? wish I knew how to fix it; can't do it by myself